Know what you don’t know

I have been extremely out of it for the past couple of weeks. Let me tell you about it.

A chance encounter with someone on the Clipper led to an email a few months later regarding a volunteer opportunity for an Agile conference. After checking my busy schedule (lol), conferring with Soren and realizing that I needed a break from the disruptive family problems that reaped havoc in my life. I drafted an email explaining why I was interested in volunteering and why I would be a good fit to do so. The next day I received a message congratulating me that I would be volunteering for the 3 day conference.

First off, I know very little about Agile aside from articles I’ve read and watching videos from the package I bought from online learning. I was definitely interested, but still felt my imposter syndrome creeping back in, but nevertheless I relented and showed up bright early Monday morning to assist anyway I can. I worked registration for the first three hours and then the magic happened. Actually, I don’t really know how to describe what happened, but I managed to network and met people who I felt were extremely helpful.

I don’t know if I really want to keep talking about my experiences with networking. TBH – I don’t know what to make of anything. I think my depression has really overtaken my efforts to be motivated and I really keep the momentum going. I told Soren how I feel so out of it and how disruptive this depression episode feels. Maybe I’ll start talking about Agile and my goals for myself regarding getting myself employed, but maybe I won’t. I haven’t forgotten about this blog, though… I’ve just been trying to get myself towards a better baseline. Grief isn’t linear so hopefully with some support and help I can feel better.