Here Zar goes starting another one of her short-lived passion projects. I’ve done this many times before, but I’m really hoping this time my project/blog has a longer lifespan than all the others. I hope that I can stay consistent enough that it will one day to feel organic to share my thoughts and my life in this space. It’s 2020 for goodness sakes. I swear I was much more steady and solid in my teens. I mean those were the xanga and livejournal days when hormones and emotions raged and I self-declared myself as *emo*. I thiiiiiink I mostly talked about being exhausted with life. Like a lot. Haha, those were the days. Little did 14 year old Zar know what she was in for. She definitely would not say all that junk back then, ha.
So why now? Why not now. I moved to Seattle after spending 27+ years of my life (give a year or two when I spent time in Iloilo/Manila) in Jersey City to follow a man. After 7 months – I’m still with said man and we’re getting married in less than a year! He’s been my saving grace and my best friend for the past 6 years as I’ve learned to navigate young adulthood. He even supported me through my masters degree much to my family’s disappointment. So after he suggested for the nth time that I needed to work on my writing skills and find a place to share my thoughts so I don’t go stir crazy with being unemployed & homesickness – I finally bit the bullet. I tried to start a blog as a fresh social work graduate a couple years back, but I realized that I didn’t have much to say because I didn’t have enough experience and felt resentful about my internship (you’ll definitely read more about that.) So I’m casting a wider net this time. I want to talk about my Fil-Am narrative and my experiences being a brown girl. I even want to write about my awkwardness with my mother’s native language: Hiligaynon or what others refer to as Illonggo. The ideas are endless and I really feel motivated to share my thoughts with others.
I don’t necessarily have goals for this blog – at least not yet. I just want to create a space for me to express myself, share what I know and find a community of likeminded individuals. I plan to do posts re: FilAm experience, my make up enthusiast hauls, wedding hacks/discoveries, unemployment woes (gahhh), cooking adventures and what life is like here in the Emerald City. Look forward to writing some more.
-Zeraphine
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